I was going through old photos, old social networking sites, and even old things I had once put and noticed something… and that’s how quickly things change. Some occur over the years others in just a month or two. Physical changes are evident like hair styles, facial structure, height, weight, etc. Emotional changes on the other hand are something else.  For whatever reason your out look or attitude could change from just a single experience. The old photos reminded me of a much simpler time in my life. Going to school, hanging out with my friends on the weekends, dreaming about my future. Some of those friends that I made came and went over the years, others I’m still close to today. In these few years it’s crazy to see how close I was to certain people. Some of them I barely even talk to now. At the time I always thought I’d always be close to them. For whatever reason I guess we just grew apart. It’s funny to see exactly how you once viewed someone compared to how you see them now. I’ve learned that you may know a lot about someone but may never really understand their motives or actions. Just always try and be supportive. Memories are important because they can preserve things that may not be in your life anymore. An enjoyable experience, a life lesson, to even past loves. The word love is miss used a lot these days. I believe that when you tell you someone you love them that it isn’t just something temporary. It comes from the heart, believe it with every being of your body. Like I said before I may not always be close to the ones around me or as close but if I tell you I love you understand that I mean it and that I always will. Life is always moving. Things are always changing around you. I heard a quote the other day that really stuck. “The greats adjust”. From my interpretation of the quote I believe it means that those who can always change and adapt to whatever comes at them are the most successful in life. For now I’m just taking it one step at a time. Enjoying what life has to offer me.

I’m going to make it a habbit to get on here a lot more often. I got soo much stuff to update… It’ll happen soon promise.

Two worlds apart, distance created by insecurities, love isn’t a game, you need to embrace it, in and out of a phase, whatever happened to just being happy? Worrying too much about tomorrow not enjoying enough of today. Lack of verbal communication, it’s not too hard to express feelings, a state of mind I should have kept, my guard battered and broken by persistance. Distance has blinded your sight of what we once had, your memory fading slowly as you forget the words I had once uttered, my mind in distraught, a state of clutter, find your way back or be with another, only time will tell if we’ll ever see each other…

I really need to make it a habit to get on here more often. I finally got a job after months of complaining :).  I got hired at Abercrombie in Arden. You guys should come visit me when I’m working.  Life has gotten a lot better since I last wrote.  First semester is coming to an end and in about 2 weeks Christmas will finally be here. I’m really looking forward to it.  I love this time of year because of how selfless people become.  Families spending time together,just appreciating life and what they have.  I know many are struggling with financial problems right now but they need to remember that they are still rich at heart.  Share & always give when you can.  Trust me it’ll always come back to you one way or another.  Second semester is going to be great since I don’t have to worry about getting into it with Mrs. Reiger anymore. I mean she’s a nice lady but I would rather not but heads with her on a daily basis.  Another great thing about second semester is that I’ll finally be learning Psychology which is the basis for my career.  Getting out an hour early for early dismissal isn’t too bad either.  It’ll make it easier to get to the mall on days when I have work, or give me extra time to nap or do hw lol.  Only two months left until tennis season is finally here. I really need to start practicing a lot more then I have lately.  I remember last year I used to practice at least two hours a day then 8 hours during the weekend.  I have a lot of goals in mind this season and I’m not going to attain them by just sitting around.  My girl situation is better and I’m glad to say that there is one special girl I’m truly intrested in.  She makes me smile with her corny ways, and I can’t help but smile whenever she does something sweet.  Everyone keeps telling me that she’s a keeper, come on now I already knew that ha. I’m glad that she’s in my life and I can see something good coming out of having more with her.  I don’t recall ever meeting someone who had so much in common with me.  Everything just feels right when I’m around her.  I hope my moms right.  “If it’s meant to be it’ll happen, there’s always a way”. I’m honostly really thankful for everything I’ve been given lately.  I hope your listening God and make sure that my Uncle makes it to heaven safetly.  Say hi to papa for me too I miss him so much sometimes.  I promised to make you proud one day,  I won’t forget don’t worry.  That reminds me I haven’t been to church in a few weeks I really need to go soon. 

I don’t know what it is but I’ve just been stressing a lot lately. School, friends, college etc.  It’s not that I can’t handle everything it’s just everything’s happening at the same time. I just wish it was Monday already so I can start tennis clinic.  Everything is better when it’s tennis season and I’m sooo looking forward to second semester for several reasons. One it means that school will end in approximately 5 months.  I will be in AP Psychology and I’m looking forward to actually learning stuff about my career.  No more Mrs. Reiger. and I get to either TA or have an elective during 7th period.  I know I shouldn’t be worrying about girls period, I learned that thanks to an old friend but there’s one who’s kind of making me break my rules.  I usually never text girls first ever.  If you don’t text me I won’t give a fuck.  If we don’t hang out, that’s your loss not mine.  Phone calls, I usually go to sleep early.  Stopping by your locker every period, straight doing too much.  but I’ve been doing all of these things.  I made a promise to myself that I wouldn’t put in too much effort unless the other person was willing to do the same.  I mean the situation is simple.  Be with me or don’t, at least then I will have everything settled.  I’d rather have clarity then being stuck in between.  Something needs to change soon or else I will.  I really don’t have patience anymore and it’s kind of sad.  I feel as if I’ve been disappointing my mom lately. :/ I know she understands but sometimes she’s soo biased on her opinions and doesn’t want to take the time to hear me out.  I could really use a job, money is mainly one of the reasons why we fight.  I HATE asking my mom for money but sometimes I really need it then she guilt trips the fuck out of me.  What do I do?.  I think I just need some time to myself for now.  At least a few days to get my priorities straight and to get back on track.  I should be more focused on tennis season anyway.  Maybe playing will get everything off my mind.  It usually does.